Terror

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I find it easier to hate you

after all I've been through

but still I find myself

loving you.

Insanity

This is the story of why I am dead...
It started all inside my head,
A voice shouting its incantation,
Shouting out its accusation.
To the voice I wish damnation,
Now I find my frustration.
Shattered is my concentration,
Yet I try at evaluation.
Now I scream in exclamation,
Now I come to realization,
Now I know the explination,
Now I see the situation...
My sanity is on vacation.
Why sane thoughts my mind does shun,
Why I am scared of everyone,
Why I fear the bright warm sun,
To my temple goes the gun...
It started all inside my head,
That is the story of why I'm dead.


A Talk With Myself

I had a talk with myself today,
Just to see what I had to say.
I said I'm tired, I said I'm weak,
I said it loud although I could hardly speak.
My thoughts came out in a silent hush,
Throughout my mind my words did rush.
Along with the most silent cry,
That tries to hide the urge to die.
I spoke of a silence no longer there,
And how it seems like no one cares.
A lingering thought filled my head,
Of the tomarrow I did dread.
And how I spoke of a last hope,
As if I had no way to cope.
A lost tomarrow in all my dreams,
I said it loud enough although it seems...
I had a talk with myself today,
But no one heard what I had to say.



Melting Away

When I need you,
You're not here.
When I hear you,
You're not there.
When I see you,
I just stare.
Shall I melt in my despair?

I want to love you,
You don't care.
I want to cherish you,
You don't dare.
I want to hold you,
But you stand and glare...
As I melt in my depair.

I looked into your eyes,
That now lead me on.
Your loving smile...
A perfect discuise.

You say you cry,
Yet you make me weep.
The love you held was a lie,
Now my soul will slowly die


Alone with you?

Dragging on with me
the memory of what you used to be
simple words meant volumes then
and we were pure,we had nothing to mend
when the pain came and i was hurt
you left me here,broken and oh so alone....
sweet sympathy no longer rains down
just salty tears falling empty on my frown
my pain came swiftly,creeping and fast
and still,it has yet to let me be and pass
i don't know how to bring you around
how to plunge you inot the darkness that
blurs my vision,makes me moan
oh so alone....
your idle ways impound my heart
your aim was almost perfect,with your dart
of ignorance and confusion that struck me down
delicious thoughts,shattered and confound
why not pick me up and hold me love?
you cannot spare a feeling,need no one but yourself,
all alone,oh so alone....
take advantage of your admirers
feel them up for all their worth
i'll stand by hoping you itre of these games
and realize that what i have is love
that ishurting me because i cannot
deal with it's immensity
one day will i be free?
is together the way we are meant to be?
or am i alone? all alone,oh so alone...
alone with you at last?

Written by Elizabeth

Bitterness

I need to get away
from all that binds me to the floor
The pain,the hurt,the sorrow
i cant take it any more....

I need a knife to cut me free
from these chains that tie me down
i need to get away from this
godforsaken town

Im cursed for all eternity
by this scar inside my heart
the pain will never dissapear
the guilt will never part

I held you close,so close to me
and then i let you go
my bitterness subsided
i let my truth and beauty show

You backed away in terror
your smile now fading fast
I remember a love like this once
but that was in the past

You cried out in alarm
as i slash you with the blade
your heart no longer beating
your lips no longer prayed

I touched your blood with my fingertips
i smiled and closed my eyes
i no longer felt your innocence
i no longer heard your lies

I withdrew all my anger
I turned and backed away
I look back..calling out your name
Oh wont you come and play

Written by Kindred Angel 

                


Beautiful Scar

Slide the blade along my arm,
Remember who I used to be.
Know the hate I have become,
I am never really free.
Blood drip down from the blade,
Just as red as before.
Pumped by a broken heart,
Afraid to love once more.
Touch my lips to the bleeding cut,
A taste of my cold life.
Manifest my insane mind,
Discover it with a knife.
Try to make the cut deep enough
To kill away the pain.
Hurt myself bad enough
To cover up the stain.

Written by Unforgiven Sinner

Blood and Rust

Time shifting slowly
Across my skin again
As I turn to bleed
And taste my life

Rusted eyes closed
Hands held tight
Shaken faith falls
Blood blinds my sight

Written by Brian Rimmer

Deicide

When I look into your eyes,
There is nothing there.
Like the deepest, darkest, greenest sea,
A cold, blank, expressionless stare.

Your pain is sweet to the touch.
There's safety in your embrace.
I hate you, I love you so much.
Contentful evil in your face.

Where is that safe place for you?
Mine is serenity in violent winds.
I have learned from my mistakes before,
Never trust those who seem to be friends.

Take me, your toy, to do as you will.
Transform pain into seduction.
Love me, kill me, it's all the same,
Savor the humility of my moral reduction.

I'm just a slave to your cause,
Take me body and soul.
I am nothing without you,
I need you to make me whole.

I can't take this void anymore,
This big black hole in my head.
My torture is fading without you,
Don't you miss my blood so crimson red?

Death is such an easy way out.
I'm your thorned withered black rose.
For now just keep me pleasurably pained,
I'll have forever, for my eyes to close.

Written by Michael Ramsey

God Hid the Razor

Nobody cared for me
that was clear enough.
It came to be so hard
to act so tough.

So I bought my ticket
to down below.
My bags were packed
and I was ready to go.

I had said my goodbyes;
I had wished them farewell.
It's too bad I'm still here
my story to tell.

At the last minutes
it was all in my favor
to just get it done but,

God hid the razor.

Written by Elle Mai

I Touch

i touch.
you recoil.
i pull the rope just a little bit tighter.
i touch.
you moan.
i stuff the gag just a little bit deeper.
i touch.
you cry.
i tie the blindfold just a little bit tighter.
i touch.
you shiver.
i pile the blankets on just a little bit thicker.
i touch.
you do nothing at all.

Written by The Fool

Don't stand beside my grave and weep,
For I'm not there, I do not sleep,
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond's glint on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush,
of quiet birds in circle flight,
I am soft stars that shine at night,
Don't stand beside my grave and cry,
I am not there. I did not die.

I CAN DO BETTER

I hear your words, words of hate.
What have I done? We used to be so great.
You treat me like muck on your shoe,
I try my best, Ive stood by you.

I think I deserve better, a bit of respect,
But why cant I leave? I can get better yet.
Arguing is all we ever seem to do,
When it comes down to love, you havent a clue.

Im sick of your stares and your evil eyes,
Your dirty looks and your friends out as spies.
Leave me alone, start being a mate,
Well never stay together if you carry on at this rate.

I cant stand your jealousy, stop accusing me!
Youre a cheating rat, stop using me!
I love you dearly but Ive had enough,
Please be gentle with my heart, stop being so rough!

Nichola Firth

HOPE IS GONE

Trying to hold on, but all hope is gone.
Keeping very still, waiting for the thrill.
holding your breath, catching your death
waiting to see what's happening to me
Lungs are swelling, lights are compelling
darkness sets in, quivering chin
trying to hold on, but all hope is gone
feeling the shame, calling my name
wanting to die, starting to cry
my soul it is robbing, pulsating, throbbing
Tears taste like salt, it's all my fault
rolling and shaking, no noise am I making
I'm trying to hold on, but all hope is gone.